Video stolen taken from Mel's blog
Speaking of a change... Maybe I should too. Gimme sometime, hmmm....
Speaking of a change... Maybe I should too. Gimme sometime, hmmm....
Thursday, November 6, 2008
A Change
And so Obama became the first black president for the US of A. Lets hope he really make a change to everything, such as the war and the economy crisis. Make us proud, man.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Show me a direction, please?
A lot of thoughts are going through my head right now.
I am tired of everything, mentally, physically, emotionally... The stress is killing me. I seriously need a hug. =(
Things are just even more screwed up than before, everything is going south and there is no sign of it stopping. I'm in dire need of someone to talk to, someone who don't judge, someone who just listens and point me to the right direction. Though it would be easier to just give up everything and quit but I chose to stay and confront it. And the outcome? Needless to say, its ugly. I'm like walking in a dark tunnel without seeing the light on the other end of it. That damn light, I am satisfy to be able to have a glimpse of it. Just one glimpse to let me know the path I have taken is the correct one. Is that too much I am asking for?
I really really hate to admit that I am having difficulties in improving. I seem to be repeating all the stupid things I have done. And being a super hard necked person, I tend to not learn from it, end up making a fool outta my self. Just someone please, stop criticizing, save your nonconstructive sarcastic comments and tell me what the fuck I should do instead, point me to a new direction, I am tired of walking down the same path over and over again.
Well it is suffice to say I am thoroughly defeated by my self. It may seem like butterflies and sunshine outside of me all the while, but in the inside, its just dark and lonely... emo... I guess Mel is correct some how, I tend to wear a mask to hide everything under it. Only to show a little of me every now and then.
Please, point me to the light for once.
I am tired of everything, mentally, physically, emotionally... The stress is killing me. I seriously need a hug. =(
Things are just even more screwed up than before, everything is going south and there is no sign of it stopping. I'm in dire need of someone to talk to, someone who don't judge, someone who just listens and point me to the right direction. Though it would be easier to just give up everything and quit but I chose to stay and confront it. And the outcome? Needless to say, its ugly. I'm like walking in a dark tunnel without seeing the light on the other end of it. That damn light, I am satisfy to be able to have a glimpse of it. Just one glimpse to let me know the path I have taken is the correct one. Is that too much I am asking for?
I really really hate to admit that I am having difficulties in improving. I seem to be repeating all the stupid things I have done. And being a super hard necked person, I tend to not learn from it, end up making a fool outta my self. Just someone please, stop criticizing, save your nonconstructive sarcastic comments and tell me what the fuck I should do instead, point me to a new direction, I am tired of walking down the same path over and over again.
Well it is suffice to say I am thoroughly defeated by my self. It may seem like butterflies and sunshine outside of me all the while, but in the inside, its just dark and lonely... emo... I guess Mel is correct some how, I tend to wear a mask to hide everything under it. Only to show a little of me every now and then.
Please, point me to the light for once.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
My life so far...
To Melanie: Just admit that picture of the rose I took is awesome!!
...is quite screw up. Well, not gonna go into details, lets just say that everything isn't going the way I want it to be. Like the Penang trip, canceled. Going to the beach, canceled. Even that something I yearn the most, end up in the pits of hell. But then, thinking back, nothing seem to go my way since form 4, lol, so maybe I shouldn't complain too much. Haha, Fuck me.
Seriously, I need a long vacation, ya know for some soul searching and shit... (I'm 18 and I sound like an old hag right now, great.)
Somewhere quiet...
Somewhere where I can totally unwind, breathing in the distinct smell of seawater... Chill... and forget bout everything....
And just listen to the spellbinding tune of waves crushing onto the sand... Blissfulness.
Currently listening to: Sempurna by Andra and The BackBone
...is quite screw up. Well, not gonna go into details, lets just say that everything isn't going the way I want it to be. Like the Penang trip, canceled. Going to the beach, canceled. Even that something I yearn the most, end up in the pits of hell. But then, thinking back, nothing seem to go my way since form 4, lol, so maybe I shouldn't complain too much. Haha, Fuck me.
Seriously, I need a long vacation, ya know for some soul searching and shit... (I'm 18 and I sound like an old hag right now, great.)
Somewhere quiet...
And just listen to the spellbinding tune of waves crushing onto the sand... Blissfulness.
Currently listening to: Sempurna by Andra and The BackBone
Thursday, August 14, 2008
2 months and 9 days.
Yep, I guess this is how long it took me to update my blog... I'm such a sloth... gosh = =
Apart from that I guess education have also contributed to my absence here. Yea, I know in your mind you'd be probably thinking this is all shitload of EXCUSES... but can't I make my self feel better with it?? It's still my blog you know... Sigh!
Well, I have to make this post a short one, since I have an important Econs presentation I have to prepare for tomorrow.
Oh yea, I pawn the shit outta the opposing team during my computer studies debate... FUCK YEAH!!
The opposing team's friends tried to help them by asking me a question about HOW DO I KNOW THAT THE DATA LAYER OF A DVD IS UNDERNEATH ITS COVER and IF ITS TRUE, PROVE IT TO ME!!! roar... (Seriously, the question of the year man)
Which after a little thought, I answered him stylishly, "First and foremost, it had been mentioned by my first speaker earlier (you dumbfuck, have you not been listening?!), and it is available all over the internet (damn it, bet your ass you thought the internet is all about your little game of DoTA and porn, freaking fucktards wei...), you want prove?? Yea sure, but we don't have the time for that now, let me show it to you later, wokay?(in other words, stfu and sit there fool!)" =D
The crowd went wild right after I finish my sentence man. Lol shit... definitely one of the best self-pwnage I've witnessed this year, or indirectly cause by me. And thanks to him I got my team extra points for my effort in trying to answer every single questions asked. I guess he felt like kicking himself in the groin after asking that question. XD
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On the lighter side.... This is the reason why Lifehouse rocks my socks....
Apart from that I guess education have also contributed to my absence here. Yea, I know in your mind you'd be probably thinking this is all shitload of EXCUSES... but can't I make my self feel better with it?? It's still my blog you know... Sigh!
Well, I have to make this post a short one, since I have an important Econs presentation I have to prepare for tomorrow.
Oh yea, I pawn the shit outta the opposing team during my computer studies debate... FUCK YEAH!!
The opposing team's friends tried to help them by asking me a question about HOW DO I KNOW THAT THE DATA LAYER OF A DVD IS UNDERNEATH ITS COVER and IF ITS TRUE, PROVE IT TO ME!!! roar... (Seriously, the question of the year man)
Which after a little thought, I answered him stylishly, "First and foremost, it had been mentioned by my first speaker earlier (you dumbfuck, have you not been listening?!), and it is available all over the internet (damn it, bet your ass you thought the internet is all about your little game of DoTA and porn, freaking fucktards wei...), you want prove?? Yea sure, but we don't have the time for that now, let me show it to you later, wokay?(in other words, stfu and sit there fool!)" =D
The crowd went wild right after I finish my sentence man. Lol shit... definitely one of the best self-pwnage I've witnessed this year, or indirectly cause by me. And thanks to him I got my team extra points for my effort in trying to answer every single questions asked. I guess he felt like kicking himself in the groin after asking that question. XD
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On the lighter side.... This is the reason why Lifehouse rocks my socks....
Everything
Lifehouse
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place
where I find peace, again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light, to my soul.
You are my purpose, you're everything.
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You still my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything.
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better, any better than this.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Lifehouse
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place
where I find peace, again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light, to my soul.
You are my purpose, you're everything.
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You still my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything.
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better, any better than this.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Were you moved?
Sunday, June 8, 2008
I've got TAG!!!
How do you pronounce sex?
I kid you not when Shehping and I heard some speaker said "SES" during UTAR's foundation in science orientation. Not once, but a couple of times.... Fuck me. = =
By the way this tag is loooooooonnnnnnngggggggg overdue, I'm sorry guys. =/
Wokay, enough of that and back to what I wanted to write now.
As you know, I've got tag for the first time. (yealahhh... Pertama kali lah, my first blog ok, zzzz)
By my beloved cousin, Shinna! (Don't tag me so much, wokayy?)
Remove one question from above and create your very own question, make it total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of the post.
Notify them in their chat box the he/she is been tagged.
And now, I would like to tag shehping the "sessy", Calvin, Cheryl and Yiching. Have fun guys!
I kid you not when Shehping and I heard some speaker said "SES" during UTAR's foundation in science orientation. Not once, but a couple of times.... Fuck me. = =
By the way this tag is loooooooonnnnnnngggggggg overdue, I'm sorry guys. =/
Wokay, enough of that and back to what I wanted to write now.
As you know, I've got tag for the first time. (yealahhh... Pertama kali lah, my first blog ok, zzzz)
By my beloved cousin, Shinna! (Don't tag me so much, wokayy?)
1.Have you been trying to avoid something or someone?
yes…
3. What's your favourite thing to do
2. Where will you go if someone sponsor you a tour ticket?
Somewhere with really beautiful bitches beaches, like the Bahamas, Bali or Phuket!
Sleeping, tidur, fan gao, sui jiao, oin oin. No shit aight...
4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
Well if you ask me, its relative to what situation I am facing that time. If I am broke in the end of the month, of course money would make me happy. But then, there are times when money can't do anything much, like lets say it wouldn't cure AIDS even if you shove money into your veins or something. So, In the end, the question it self is flawed. cheers!
5. If you had one dream to come true, what would it be?
My dream is to have more than one dream. Cheers!!!!!! XD
6. What do you see in an ideal girlfriend/boyfriend?
Loving and caring with all her heart and can be fit to be the mother of my children. (Hey since it says ideal ok, means someone I would be looking forward to marry)
7. What are you most afraid to lose?
Also same with Shinna, everything I have now, family, friends till the air that I breath.
8. If you win $1million, what would you do?
- Take a million.
- Setup a company.
- And earn another million.
9. What is the most enjoyable thing you did lately?
Spending time with Shinna!! God it's so hard to see her, miss her like hell!! Dayummmm...
10. List at least 5 of your closest friend.
Son, Jo, Jye, Waicunt, Calvin, Shehping, Shyen, Merv... and the list goes on....
11. What do you think you will be doing in 10years time?
Hopefully realizing my dream as an engineer working for Ferrari, yea, THE Ferarri. And rich enough to not have to worry much bout anything.
12. Would you date someone who's at least 10 years younger or older than you? Hey love is blind wokay... 10 years older or 10 years younger, when you're in love, you are blind. =D
13. What is your ambition?
To be successful, happy and live the life that I've always dream of, it wouldn't need to be perfect, just close to it will make me happy. =)
14. Describe your perfect date?
Walking on the beach under the moonlight, holding hands with the girl I love the most, whispering how much I loved her beside her ears while listening to the waves crushing onto the shore. Bliss....
15. What do you think is the most important in your life?
Everything I have right now, can't imagine if I lost everything valuable to me, family, friends and all.
16. If you can undo doing one mistake in the past, what would it be?
I believe that undoing a mistake wouldn't do any good, I mean it's always you who make the last decision to everything you do, right? Trying to fix it, learn from the mistake is what matters.
17. what do you dislike about yourself?
My height! God........
18. What music have you been listening to recently?
Leona Lewis- Bleeding Love, David Cook- Always be my baby, Alicia Key's As I am album and most of Lifehouse's albums, and some Coldplay.
19. What is your least favourite animal?
Humans that are worse than animals, like mofos who torture their own children or sick bastards who do a lot of awful things to fellow human beings.
20. Who you wanna be with in this very moment?
No comment. =) (I have the rights! weeeeeeee....)
Remove one question from above and create your very own question, make it total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of the post.
Notify them in their chat box the he/she is been tagged.
And now, I would like to tag shehping the "sessy", Calvin, Cheryl and Yiching. Have fun guys!
Monday, April 28, 2008
Chocolate flavoured sticky popsicle banana shaped sex toy!
Yeah you heard me...
Massive random post title... fuck yeah!
(Blog title somewhat unrelated to post contents)
Wokay, enough of that crap. Something disturbing pop up when I'm lurking around LYN today. Heres the news article taken from The Star today.
What the fuck?!? This is some serious incest shit going on man, what the hell are those bastards thinking, seriously. How could a normal man do this to their own offspring, and the best part is, the wife don't even know whats happening right under he feet for TWENTY-FOUR FREAKIN YEARS!!
Wouldn't she be curious about the sounds coming from her basement?? I mean, he freaking rapes the girl and wouldn't the girl shout and all??? Not to mention the voices of babies crying and all. How could she be so ignorant about everything going on RIGHT UNDER THE VERY HOUSE SHE'S STAYING IN!!!!
Ok fine with that, maybe she really doesn't give a damn, but aren't you suppose to be a lil curious about your own husband's obsession and bringing stuffs down to the basement?? 24 years is a loooooooooooonnnggggggg time. ANDDD Aren't you even a bit curious about your daughter's "sudden" return to home??? For fuck's sake she's your daughter!! I'm utterly disgusted right now by her ignorance.
Don't get me started at the diuniasengcibailanchaoKNSbabikia husband now, words can't describe the actions he has taken on another fellow human being, not to mention thats her daughter we're talking about. URGH! I for one, believe in karma, and freaking hope karma will get right back up your ass when it comes.
I'm still in disbelieve after writing this, shit's really fuck up. Makes me wonder what the hell is wrong with humanity these days...
On the lighter side, heres my one of my favourite song.
Massive random post title... fuck yeah!
(Blog title somewhat unrelated to post contents)
Wokay, enough of that crap. Something disturbing pop up when I'm lurking around LYN today. Heres the news article taken from The Star today.
Austrian woman says held, abused by father 24 yrs
By Heinz-Peter Bader
AMSTETTEN, Austria (Reuters) - Austrian police have arrested a man they believe imprisoned his daughter in a windowless basement for 24 years, abused her and fathered seven children with her.
Police said the woman, identified as 42-year-old Elisabeth F, told them her father Josef had lured her into the basement of the block where the family lived in Amstetten in 1984, and drugged and handcuffed her before locking her up in the dungeon.
Three of her children were locked up since birth in the basement of the drab, grey building along with their mother and had never seen sunlight or received any education, police said.
Authorities were still trying to piece together details of the case, which is reminiscent of that of Austrian Natascha Kampusch who spent eight years locked up in a windowless cell before dashing to freedom in August 2006.
Police said Josef, a 73-year-old electrical engineering technician by training, was in custody and had told investigators how to enter the basement prison through a small hidden door, operated by a secret code which only he had known.
"There is not only one, but a number of rooms: one room to sleep in, one to cook, and there are also sanitation facilities," Franz Polzer, head of the criminal investigations unit in the province of Lower Austria, told broadcaster ORF.
Josef's wife Rosemarie had been unaware of what happened to her daughter and it was assumed Elisabeth had disappeared voluntarily when her parents received a letter from her saying they should not search for her.
Elisabeth gave birth to seven children during her ordeal, one of whom died shortly after being born, police said.
Three of the younger children were brought up by Josef and his wife after they were left at the building, the first child accompanied by a note from Elisabeth saying she was unable to care for the baby herself.
Three others, including the two eldest aged 18 and 19, and the youngest, aged 5, had been locked up in the basement with their mother since birth.
"The father seems to be very authoritarian and decided what happened and what was supposed to happen in the family -- and today we know why he very closely guarded the basement," Polzer said.
LOCKED UP SINCE BIRTH
The case only came to light when the oldest child became seriously ill and was taken to hospital in Amstetten. Josef said that child had also been left unconscious on his doorstep, according to media reports.
A 19-year-old girl, who was seriously ill and is still fighting for her life, was last weekend dropped off at the hospital in Amstetten.
Doctors appealed for the girl's mother, who at that time was believed to have disappeared, to come forward to provide more details about the daughter's medical history.
Josef then brought Elisabeth and her remaining two children out of the dungeon, telling his wife that their "missing" daughter had chosen to return home, police said.
"This is not a mother abandoning her child which then had to be admitted to hospital in a serious condition ... We know that she herself has been kept imprisoned by her own father for 24 years in the basement and furthermore she obviously was also subjected to sexual abuse," Polzer said.
After questioning and assurances that she would have no further contact with her father -- who she said abused her from the age of 11 -- Elisabeth agreed to make a "comprehensive statement".
The news sent shockwaves through Amstetten, a town of around 22,000 some 130 km west of the capital Vienna.
"It is so horrible, I can see the house from my balcony and from my window and when I think now of who was in there, I can simply not imagine that,"
neighbour Corina Schmid told ORF as onlookers gathered in the street outside the three-storey building and investigators in white suits continued their search of the premises."I spoke to (Rosemarie) at Christmas, and she told me they didn't know where the daughter was, she had simply vanished," neighbour Margarete Gollonitsch told the broadcaster.
Rosemarie, as well as Elisabeth and her children were receiving psychological counselling. DNA samples of all those involved were taken and would be analysed, police said.
Copyright © 2008 Reuters
What the fuck?!? This is some serious incest shit going on man, what the hell are those bastards thinking, seriously. How could a normal man do this to their own offspring, and the best part is, the wife don't even know whats happening right under he feet for TWENTY-FOUR FREAKIN YEARS!!
Wouldn't she be curious about the sounds coming from her basement?? I mean, he freaking rapes the girl and wouldn't the girl shout and all??? Not to mention the voices of babies crying and all. How could she be so ignorant about everything going on RIGHT UNDER THE VERY HOUSE SHE'S STAYING IN!!!!
Ok fine with that, maybe she really doesn't give a damn, but aren't you suppose to be a lil curious about your own husband's obsession and bringing stuffs down to the basement?? 24 years is a loooooooooooonnnggggggg time. ANDDD Aren't you even a bit curious about your daughter's "sudden" return to home??? For fuck's sake she's your daughter!! I'm utterly disgusted right now by her ignorance.
Don't get me started at the diuniasengcibailanchaoKNSbabikia husband now, words can't describe the actions he has taken on another fellow human being, not to mention thats her daughter we're talking about. URGH! I for one, believe in karma, and freaking hope karma will get right back up your ass when it comes.
I'm still in disbelieve after writing this, shit's really fuck up. Makes me wonder what the hell is wrong with humanity these days...
On the lighter side, heres my one of my favourite song.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Sorry T.T
Yea, yea I know I might as well abandon this blog since I didn't even bother to update it for the past few months... But NO!!! I would not to do that since I made a commitment to start blogging, I don't wanna be the usual quitter again. Anything that are needed to change, must change. I don't wanna be playing the same old part anymore.... =D Well, firstly SooSoo is the one who made me get my ass here and start posting something cause it seems she's kinda dying to read what I wrote. Which indirectly means, someone have really nothing better to do is actually reading my blog!!!! Weeeeeeeeee... And the people who actually left me messages on my CB, I thank you. And for some, fuck you _|_ _|_!!!
And some Ken Lee's
Btw, I guess its time for some reviews for what I've done for the past few months, if ya wanna know.
Lets see, I got a job, and quit a job. Got a job at pc fair and it ended. Thats basically it. Just kidding =D.
Okay, so I got a job a Kurnia insurance (aka wa boh eng inc.) earlier this year as a temp. The place is not bad, since they pay u averagely, give you a lot of work to do and stuffs, but at least they offer you free lunch, so I guess it ain't that bad lah =P... But what matters the most to me is I got to know quite a lot of new people there, and it's one of my new year resolution so yeah... It's something good. The experience I gain bout insurance and communicating with people surely helps a lot as well. Another door open is better then another door closed. (Philosophy 101 by yours truly. Yeap meh!)
And then.... I got another part time at PDA Expert. This time a PDA phone shop, selling, well of course PDA phones (cunts sometimes don't get it mah!!). Went there to work for them guys at PC Fair. Hafta say, it's 1 helluva experience, man. Standing till my legs went numb at Samsung booths for 3 days is not really a good feeling... But oh well, I still manage to hit my personal target sales for each day. Oh wait, did I tell you guys this is the first time I'm doing sales???? Ahhh, I'm starting to have this feeling that doing sales are in my blood naturally... Muahahha!!!! I'm just good at it XD Bangga gila!! (Ok ok, I stop self complimenting now, ish)
OH YEAH!!! Before I end my post, heres another thing I wanna brag about for jew mofos out there, I got me self one of this babies.
My baby looks really sexy ^^
Lets see, I got a job, and quit a job. Got a job at pc fair and it ended. Thats basically it. Just kidding =D.
Okay, so I got a job a Kurnia insurance (aka wa boh eng inc.) earlier this year as a temp. The place is not bad, since they pay u averagely, give you a lot of work to do and stuffs, but at least they offer you free lunch, so I guess it ain't that bad lah =P... But what matters the most to me is I got to know quite a lot of new people there, and it's one of my new year resolution so yeah... It's something good. The experience I gain bout insurance and communicating with people surely helps a lot as well. Another door open is better then another door closed. (Philosophy 101 by yours truly. Yeap meh!)
And then.... I got another part time at PDA Expert. This time a PDA phone shop, selling, well of course PDA phones (cunts sometimes don't get it mah!!). Went there to work for them guys at PC Fair. Hafta say, it's 1 helluva experience, man. Standing till my legs went numb at Samsung booths for 3 days is not really a good feeling... But oh well, I still manage to hit my personal target sales for each day. Oh wait, did I tell you guys this is the first time I'm doing sales???? Ahhh, I'm starting to have this feeling that doing sales are in my blood naturally... Muahahha!!!! I'm just good at it XD Bangga gila!! (Ok ok, I stop self complimenting now, ish)
OH YEAH!!! Before I end my post, heres another thing I wanna brag about for jew mofos out there, I got me self one of this babies.
My baby looks really sexy ^^
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